When I Was Younger

When I was younger my mom told me a lie

She said that no one could love me until l love myself

I gave up on love not long after that

Because I could never love myself

I knew myself too well

How can I love someone who was so horrible

And who lied like it was a second nature

And who was so so stupid at times

And just over all really annoying?

When I was younger my mom told me a lie

A lie that I believed for a long time

Until just recently

When I made two new friends

And sure Stephanie never told me she loved me

But she cares about me

And it is implied in everything she says

And darling Lauren

Tell me she <3's me

And sends me ily

And a couple of I love yous

And I know it is true

When I was younger my mom told me a lie

A lie that I now know is bullshit

Because I am loved

By Stephanie

And Lauren

And Ashley

And Mason

And Luke

And Hannah

And Selena

And I am slowly starting to love myself

Because of the people who loved me when I couldn't

And I swear on my hardcover Harry Potter set

the one that comes in a trunk

that I will never teach my children, if I shall have any, that lie

Because it will ruin them

When I was younger my mom told me a lie

That lie ruined my life

But I'm doing better now

And I've came to realize

She never loved me

And just wanted to place the blame on me.